i’m a quitter, what of it?

fuck it, internet.

i’m not finishing the 30 day blog challenge. it would have been great if i could do one post per day, but i have more important things to write about! like sitting on my curling iron, or the inappropriate text messages my boyfriend sends me. that shit makes for super deep, existential posts, okay? i don’t have the patience to be insightful EVERY day. i don’t have the attention span… my thought process usually involves a monkey juggling on a unicyle while fireworks go off in the background, and there’s super loud psychedelic music playing. i have the attention-span of a shoelace.

so that’s that. i’m over it.

anyway… i had my first bootcamp class last night. and i LOVED it. the only time i sweat that profusely is when i anger-fuck. and i haven’t anger-fucked in quite some time. so this is the most working out i’ve done in awhile… and i’m freaking SORE. i took a hot bubble bath and ate some chicken and like, two cups of vegetables after my class. and then i slept like a freaking baby. dan had to take me to bed. i do, however, feel awesome this morning. my muscles are tight but i feel energized and well rested.

in other news, this saturday i’m celebrating a very merry ham-mas at my house. i’ll be cooking a huge ham roast for about ten friends or so, and we’re going to get hammered. how appropriate!

if you guys have some favourite christmas recipes/appetizers i’d love to see them! any ideas or suggestions would be GREAT!

help me feed my friends!

30 days – days 11, 12, 13, 14, 15, & 16

alright, this thing is dragging on… so here are a few days:

day 11- another picture of you and your friends

day 12- how you found out about WordPress and why you made one
i’ve used other hosts and hated all of them… i believe my buddy andrew kwerty actually told me about wordpress.

day 13- a letter to someone who has hurt you
here

day 14- a picture of you and your family
an oldie, but a goodie!

day 15- put your iPod on shuffle: first 10 songs that play
are you a lady – bratmobile
we both go down together – the decemberists
how’d you pinthat one on me – dinosaur jr
you remind me of home – ben gibbard
untouchables – billy idol
dude manor – living with lions
low rent horror – the jim yoshi pile-up
bunny ain’t no kind of rider – of montreal
you’re so last summer – taking back sunday
maria stacks – the oh sees

day 16- another picture of yourself

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself
Day 02- The meaning behind your blog name
Day 03- A recent picture of you and your friends
Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have
Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to
Day 06- Favorite super hero/fictional character and why
Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you
Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why
Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days
Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad
Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends
Day 12- How you found out about WordPress and why you made one
Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you
Day 14- A picture of you and your family
Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play
Day 16- Another picture of yourself
Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have
Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them
Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future
Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else
Day 23- Something you crave for a lot
Day 24- A letter to your parents
Day 25- What I would find in your bag
Day 26- What you think about your friends
Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge
Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?
Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned
Day 30- Who are you?

30 days – day 10

songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad

ugh, it’s almost impossible to pick one song for everything… i listen to the same bands no matter what mood i’m in.

happy:
librairies – seabear
anything by off with their heads

sad:
a toast to the happy couple – the jim yoshi pile up
endless miles – sundowner
the truth about cats and dogs – pony up

bored:
everything on my playlist

hyped:
temptation – new order
anything by andrew w.k

mad:
fuck, i don’t know! …hip hop?

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself
Day 02- The meaning behind your blog name
Day 03- A recent picture of you and your friends
Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t haveDay 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to
Day 06- Favorite super hero/fictional character and why
Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you
Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why
Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days
Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad
Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends
Day 12- How you found out about WordPress and why you made one
Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you
Day 14- A picture of you and your family
Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play
Day 16- Another picture of yourself
Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have
Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them
Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future
Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else
Day 23- Something you crave for a lot
Day 24- A letter to your parents
Day 25- What I would find in your bag
Day 26- What you think about your friends
Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge
Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?
Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned
Day 30- Who are you?

30 days – day 9

something you’re proud of, in the last few days:

i got around to doing a couple of things i kept pushing to the bottom of my list- not because i wanted to, but because either i didn’t have the time, or money.

i bought jess some adorable curtains for her new kitchen. jess, matt, and nolan (nom, those cheeks!) just moved into a super cute house and i wanted to get her a little house warming gift. i eventually plan on making her curtain-type room dividers for her laundry nook in the kitchen, also. i was going to make the kitchen curtains myself but i found the perfect ones online at urban outfitters. i can’t wait for them to come in the mail (hopefully this week!), so i can get a little package together for my lady and send it her way.

i also got the lovely miss emily to make a custom dress for my good friend adam’s little baby, isobel peach. i saw a picture of the dress and matching hair clip and was blown away- i can’t wait to get them! check out her etsy shop, if you haven’t already.

i know these aren’t huge accomplishments or anything, but they were two things i really wanted to get done.

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself
Day 02- The meaning behind your blog name
Day 03- A recent picture of you and your friends
Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t haveDay 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to
Day 06- Favorite super hero/fictional character and why
Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you
Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why
Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days
Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad
Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends
Day 12- How you found out about WordPress and why you made one
Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you
Day 14- A picture of you and your family
Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play
Day 16- Another picture of yourself
Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have
Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them
Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future
Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else
Day 23- Something you crave for a lot
Day 24- A letter to your parents
Day 25- What I would find in your bag
Day 26- What you think about your friends
Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge
Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?
Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned
Day 30- Who are you?

30 days – day 8

short term goals for this month and why

1 – hang up/put away all my clean clothes
• i never do it. i wash all my clothes, throw them on the couch in my bedroom, and then pick through them when i want to dress myself every day. it’s actually really annoying, trying to find things.

2 – vacuum, tonight actually
• moose sheds his handsome all over my black duvet, and my navy canvas couch in my bedroom. i actually vacuum my bedsheets and my duvet… is that obsessive? i wash everything every few days, and vacuum them in between. i’ve vacuumed my leather couch. i think i have a fever?

3 – eat right, dammit
• i’ve been too busy (tired & lazy) to find time to do groceries recently. i’d eaten my way through all the fresh meat, fruit, and veggies, and i’d been trying to sustain life by eating anything i had left in the cupboards… see: pasta. and what the fuck, i guess my ass exploded in size. again. thanks for the genes, mom. in any case i went to the grocery store last night and bought celery, spinach, carrots, hummus, yogurt, eggs, whole wheat bread, strawberries, light baby bell cheese, chicken breast, organic almonds, tuna, (cat food, shampoo, hairspray, airwick plug-ins)… and that all cost $100! being cute and healthy is expensive, fuck. no wonder i gave up on grocery shopping. i figured i could stay alive by drinking the 5 coffees my boss buys me every day, and a panini sandwich every two days. responsibility fail.

4 – reorganize, refile, and spruce up my office
• did i mention i have an office? with a door? and a keypad? and a window to the hallway? and blinds, so i can be pervy in privacy? yeah, what up, world! it’s pretty awesome. but my desk is super ugly and old, the walls are still bare, and nothing is in its place. when i got here the filing system they had in place was (and still is) fucking stupid. it’s like they shuffled all the invoices and important documents and then shoved them into filing cabinets with their eyes closed. while drunk on tequila. in the dark. yeah- figure that one out. i’m coming in tomorrow (saturday) to store all the old documents we no longer use, and refile absolutely everything. i do have a few accessories and a fake lilly plant, but i’d like to get a bulletin board for pictures, a painting, another plant, and some sort of filing system for mail/payables on the wall. i just got an office boner.

5 – find moose’s nail clippers, or buy him new ones
• he’s getting caught on everything… the linen shower curtain, my bedsheets, the couches, my clothes, my FACE. i’m really allergic to cats so if moose accidentally scratches me, i swell up and get hives. how cute is that right? barf.

*** 6 – let go
• i dwell in the past. i know, shocking right? since leaving andy, i’ve had all sorts of little crushes on people. i’ve casually dated around, or had flings here and there. nothing serious, nothing to lose sleep over, nothing that would/could end up breaking my heart. except one. i never acted on it, and it’s something i sort of just pushed to the back of my mind because i knew (he made it pretty damn clear), that it would never happen. i don’t know if he wouldn’t let it happen based on certain loyalties he had, or if he was genuinely uninterested- he never made it clear. so i never pushed. and i guess that’s that. someone great will come along (if she hasn’t already) and give him everything he deserves… and i know he’d make that girl happier than ever. chapter closed.

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Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself
Day 02- The meaning behind your blog name
Day 03- A recent picture of you and your friends
Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have
Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to
Day 06- Favorite super hero/fictional character and why
Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you
Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why
Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days
Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad
Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends
Day 12- How you found out about WordPress and why you made one
Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you
Day 14- A picture of you and your family
Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play
Day 16- Another picture of yourself
Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have
Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them
Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future
Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else
Day 23- Something you crave for a lot
Day 24- A letter to your parents
Day 25- What I would find in your bag
Day 26- What you think about your friends
Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge
Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?
Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned
Day 30- Who are you?

30 days – day 7

a picture of someone/something that has had the biggest impact on you

hmmm… biggest negative impact on me? that would have to be m, and there’s no way in hell i’m posting a picture of his face.

as for someone who’s made a positive impact on me? i could choose someone typical, that i’ve said a million times before… my parents, or my brother…

but i’m going to go with my sister-in-law, josée

my brother has a heart of gold- he treats every single person he meets with respect and love. he’s kind-hearted and gentle. not to mention he’s funny as hell. growing up, i hated all of his girlfriends. none of them were good enough for him, none of them fit in with the family well enough. maybe my opinion is biased because i’m his little sister and i always looked out for him, and wanted the best for him…

when i met jo for the first time, my brother asked for my opinion, the way he always did. the first thing that came out of my mouth was: so when are you going to marry her?!

josée is a very compassionate person. when her and my brother moved in together (after three months of dating!), i was just going through one of the more tumultuous times of me and m‘s relationship… and i really opened up to her and talked about some things i wasn’t able to talk about with anyone else. she was also in an abusive relationship, and until she met my brother she was in a very, very dark place. she told me not to be embarrassed, that none of it was my fault, that i had to forgive myself- even if i was too afraid to leave. she made me feel human for the first time in years. she made me believe i had self-worth. after that talk, she sent me a really long email and ended it by saying she loved me, and if i ever needed someone i could go to her. that was the beginning of one of the most important relationships in my life. she had become more than my brother’s live-in girlfriend, she had become a part of my family. she had taken on the role of a sister.

i’m protective of jo… she’s an amazing, talented, driven, brilliant, funny person. i couldn’t have asked for a better girl to marry into the family. even if she wasn’t part of my family, she’d be the kind of person i could really get close to- she has a really big heart, and every time we’re together i laugh so hard my sides ache. she really is one of a kind.

i’m so, so lucky.

and also, duh, she’s absolutely beautiful.

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself
Day 02- The meaning behind your blog name
Day 03- A recent picture of you and your friends
Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have
Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to
Day 06- Favorite super hero/fictional character and why
Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you
Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why
Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days
Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad
Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends
Day 12- How you found out about WordPress and why you made one
Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you
Day 14- A picture of you and your family
Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play
Day 16- Another picture of yourself
Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have
Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them
Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future
Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else
Day 23- Something you crave for a lot
Day 24- A letter to your parents
Day 25- What I would find in your bag
Day 26- What you think about your friends
Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge
Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?
Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned
Day 30- Who are you?

30 days – day 6

favourite super hero/fictional character, and why

i don’t know that i really have a favourite super hero… i mean, i love comics but i never really got into them all that much, and i don’t usually enjoy movies like that (i know, minus ten nerd points).

but i obviously love sci-fi.

i’ve said it a million times before- i love data from star trek.

but other fictional characters i love? marshall’s character from how i met your mother (oh hi, marry me). and sheldon from the big bang theory.

this question was totally stupid.

next, please.

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself
Day 02- The meaning behind your blog name
Day 03- A recent picture of you and your friends
Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have
Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to
Day 06- Favorite super hero/fictional character and why
Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you
Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why
Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days
Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad
Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends
Day 12- How you found out about WordPress and why you made one
Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you
Day 14- A picture of you and your family
Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play
Day 16- Another picture of yourself
Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have
Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them
Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future
Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else
Day 23- Something you crave for a lot
Day 24- A letter to your parents
Day 25- What I would find in your bag
Day 26- What you think about your friends
Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge
Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?
Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned
Day 30- Who are you?

30 days – day 5

a picture of somewhere you’ve been to:

growing up, my family never really had the money to go on expensive vacations to places we’ve never been- but every single year my parents would take us camping since we were kids… i grew up spending the summer sleeping in tents, playing in the sand dunes and spending hours in the water. it was nothing extravagant, but it was definitely an amazing way to spend my summer with family and friends…

i’ve been on one real trip my entire life, and that was to punta cana, dominican republic. i went with my parents, my brother, and my sister-in-law… and it was by far the most fun i could have ever asked for. we got to experience different foods, swim with sharks & string-ray, get absolutely shit-faced as of 9am, saw a few live shows, danced to bob marley on a sandbar in the middle of the ocean, danced with a crew member who mildly looked like snoop dogg (got so drunk i actually called him snoop dogg), tried new drinks, visited a town nearby, and spent hours upon hours roasting in the sun.

i’m glad we saved our first real trip so my brother and i were old enough to really soak up the culture and appreciate the vacation we were on. plus, we were at an age where we no longer tolerated my parents’ presence, we actually enjoyed and looked forward to it.

i know that last one is irrelevant but my sister-in-law and i put 5 bottles of bubble bath into a whirl-pool tub, and drank beers until the bubbles had pretty much reached ceiling height… we still talk about the silliness of that today- not to mention how my mum flipped out because we brought the towel swan into the tub (after my brother punted it across the bathroom floor), and told us “that’s soooooooo disrespectful”.

we still quote her.

which is sooooooooo disrespectful of us.

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself
Day 02- The meaning behind your blog name
Day 03- A recent picture of you and your friends
Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have
Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to
Day 06- Favorite super hero/fictional character and why
Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you
Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why
Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days
Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad
Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends
Day 12- How you found out about WordPress and why you made one
Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you
Day 14- A picture of you and your family
Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play
Day 16- Another picture of yourself
Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have
Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them
Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future
Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else
Day 23- Something you crave for a lot
Day 24- A letter to your parents
Day 25- What I would find in your bag
Day 26- What you think about your friends
Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge
Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?
Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned
Day 30- Who are you?

30 days – day 4

a habit you wish you didn’t have:

oh, good lord. i have probably eight thousand bad habits- and my mother can totally vouch for that. alright, let’s see what i can come up with…

- i chew the inside of my bottom lip when i’m nervous
- i put away all my clean clothes into the drawers they belong in, but i leave everything that needs to be hung up on the couch in my bedroom.. and i have A LOT of clothes.
- i buy coffee almost every morning
- i generally don’t let myself get too close or involved emotionally with men; unless they live in another city, or are in some way unavailable… mostly out of fear of rejection or getting hurt.
- i eat before napping
- i’ve always been an over-achiever when it comes to working… my boss thinks it’s because my brother is so successful, and i’m trying to prove to everyone that i’m not a total skid. i think he’s right.
- i change outfits 20 times before leaving the house. it’s like i hit puberty, my ass exploded in size (i became a woman), and i still haven’t forgiven my sixteen year old self (or my mother’s genes) for growing up.
- i eat my meals one section at a time… it drives my parents insane
- i fall asleep with makeup on and contacts in (WORST!)
- i wash, curl, and hairspray my hair every single day
- i make a really annoying gag noise when something grosses me out… most people think it’s funny; i hear myself do it and i want to punch myself in the head
- i scream during horror movies, and say the weirdest shit to the characters when i’m scared…
- i spend money i shouldn’t spend on things i don’t need

there are millions more, but i think that’s enough for now!

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself
Day 02- The meaning behind your blog name
Day 03- A recent picture of you and your friends
Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have
Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to
Day 06- Favorite super hero/fictional character and why
Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you
Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why
Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days
Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad
Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends
Day 12- How you found out about WordPress and why you made one
Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you
Day 14- A picture of you and your family
Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play
Day 16- Another picture of yourself
Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have
Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them
Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future
Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else
Day 23- Something you crave for a lot
Day 24- A letter to your parents
Day 25- What I would find in your bag
Day 26- What you think about your friends
Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge
Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?
Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned
Day 30- Who are you?

30 days – day 3

a recent picture of you and your friends:

alright, so! i actually have a few groups of friends, and it’s really hard to get all of them into one picture, so i have a bunch of pictures i love, with all the awesome people i consider myself closest to…

i’m super lucky to have friends as silly and fun as these guys!

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself
Day 02- The meaning behind your blog name
Day 03- A recent picture of you and your friends
Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have
Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to
Day 06- Favorite super hero/fictional character and why
Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you
Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why
Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days
Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad
Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends
Day 12- How you found out about WordPress and why you made one
Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you
Day 14- A picture of you and your family
Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play
Day 16- Another picture of yourself
Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have
Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them
Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future
Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else
Day 23- Something you crave for a lot
Day 24- A letter to your parents
Day 25- What I would find in your bag
Day 26- What you think about your friends
Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge
Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?
Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned
Day 30- Who are you?